This quality of spaciousness felt like dappled light through a grove of trees, or a field of barley swaying in the breeze, absorbing the sun through its kernels and water through its roots. It was like a patient rock, spaciously enduring millennia. It was like the sea that may be churning its experience as heaving waves, but deep beneath the surface is a vast expanse of ocean flowing with the ease and grace of the life force that feeds its soul.
This quality was as present and as serene as the natural world, which no matter how wild it became, was accepting of the cycles of coming and going.
Like the vastness of space revealing itself once the clouds disperse.
Out of the stillness of your unobstructed mind,
The luminous clarity of your True Self will naturally emerge.
My perception of this consciousness felt delicate initially. I dropped into it, and it felt like a flutter, a momentary awareness of my potential, much as a foetus is felt in the belly when we first discern its movements. The foetus is already there—we have received the pregnancy test results, seen the scans, yet the first felt movements are like a whisper we cannot quite believe. We begin to feel the baby’s movements without having to focus so intently on them, although the movements are felt more strongly when we are quietly aware.
When I tuned into this delicate space, I became present. I listened with deep and alert awareness. I quieted my churning mind, my emotions, and my loud bodily demands in order to sink into the moment. It was the awareness of being a part of and One with a Universal flow of energy that was always there. A few years later, when discussing it with a group of friends, I called it ‘coming home’, Ruth called it ‘not interfering’, Annika called it, ‘doing less to create more’, and Zo called it ‘being present’. We all agreed that the value of settling back into ourselves and holding space could become a guiding principle. If we cherished this as the core reason for being here, it could serve as a reminder that this was the only work there is. It assisted us to powerfully transform our worlds, each in our own way.
